sick. again :l
but happy, verryyy happy
yayayayay i've finally let go and crap
so now im a happy chappy who grew balls :)
muck up day was a PHAIL vce 08 sucks x]
im really proud of myself, call me cocky :)
tehehehhe.
anyhoooo, bored shitless
dunno if ill go to school tomorow
or maybe i will :O
or ill just skip swimmingg

some of my closest friends are pissing me off
you know, how they bag you once and you kind of let it go
but they keep on bringing it up and crap
and you justreally get pissed off.
yeah. but i try to just shut my mouth and ignore it >.>

67 days

the end

I've got an art project I'm really keen on starting
My teacher complimented my theory work :)
Hopefully i'll be able to do a really impressive work of art
Expression my opinions, I was thinking of a "Unique World"
Taking a picture of clones,and then well, adding text to it
If not, a few similar objects and one different thingy.
I hate geography, she's such a bitch.
Our group for food miles lost our work
and then she said that she'll put a ? on our geo assingnmnent
she fucking favours people like i favour weed :l
Math was really fun because we can always mess round with our teacher
Not cause he's cool or anything, cause hes a complete turd who doesnt do shit all.
So we kind of push him around and shit during class.
Orthodontists hurt my teeth alot, and tomorrow I have a dentist app which i'm dreading.

On other subjects;

its really hard, dont know what to do now.
one thing or another
i will suffer :l
to struggle or to take the easy way out
i'll still get hurt, no matter what i do
because thats the path that i've chosen
I started, it ended,
Restarted, ended.
Re-restarted. The End.
The End.

72 days 'till Malaysia,
And It's since been 53 days since an untold story.

Had a big fight with mum, just because I wanted to go to youth group.
I really wanted to go even though I'm not Christian, to learn about life and that shit.
And so there's this really big blow out going on because of this
I don't really understand how religion can play a big part in society
After all, it is just personal opinion in the first place isn't it?
It's like we, as people, can't even have our own opinions without being mocked or tormented.
Anyhooo, right now I feel really strong :) Really really really strong.
And I'm really happy because I've finally made it to this stage
Except right now I'm a bit upset, but that'll be over tomorow.
I'VE MADE IT NIGGASS :D

boring, dull, wasted holidays
but some good days.
school really soon.
assignment needs to be done.
mum has no car right now. gay.
confused. broken hearted, surviving.

Despite all my smiles I'm really lost. I feel like I'm missing something in my life, I know what it is but I just don't know how to get it. How is it that someone who can make you so happy can create such a miserable person. It's really not fair. I can't decide on what to do about my situation and it's killing me. If you miss someone, are you suppose to go back to them, crawling back and reapply your friendship or is it like a test, when you miss someone you have to try to avoid seeing them again.

Another dull day passes by and soon enough School closes in, I start off with an Oral Presentation and a load of bullshit to deal with. Hey, at least I don't have that rancid progress report bugging me 'cause of the coordinators anymore.

HOLIDAY HIGHLIGHTS!

I went to the Melbourne show.
It was really funny in the car with all the racism,
And other jokes. Showbags were the highlight.
I bought alot...


I saw WILD CHILD With Josephine,
When we were watching we turned round and looked at each other
and said "OH MY GOD" synchronised with the actresses.
Then, afterwards we walked around and found this beautiful cat.
"TSING MAO", we named it. ;)

I did alot of other shit but I'm lazy and can't be bothered documenting :)

and now I begin the blogging again. :)
I've come to realise, that being optimistic is really easy.
But then again only sometimes I get pissed off or upset.
Right now I am semi-pissed off at Jacy Ong.
Because she is naturally retarded and blog-savvy.
Hmmm, Nah, I'm really pissed off at the media, and what the media begins to portray now. It really ticks me off I guess because eventually, I see people around me change. They change into something that from when I was little,( say, Grade Four, so when I was Ten ) I dreaded to see. When I saw a crowd I would always look to be different. I remember I saw some fluorescent tights when that crap was out, and I thought to myself, "Maybe I should purchase them so people would notice me, and realise how different is better." And then all of a sudden it became this big overrated craze.
If you line up, twenty, to ten girls you would see so much similarities. They have the same ability to dress, but nothing more. It's like their opinions have faded because they rely on their appearance to take them through life and create a success within themselves. I see girls with low cut shirts showing clevage ( Which sometimes is not there ), and DAMN It pisses the fuck out of me.
Clones, I hate.
Whores, I despise.
Sluts, They're all the same anyways.


I love the jumper she is wearingg.