Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Four Months Later..

Four months..

MALAYSIA
It's been very good, Malaysia has long gone and I really miss it.
I miss being with my cousins every single day for a month, and I don't even see some of them for a month, but after two years, I can look forward to seeing them. Everyday I'd wake up to a happy atmosphere, where I would greet my cousins with mandarin :) Haha. But some with english. We'd just play stupid shit games which were fun, or we'd gamble. Pretty coooool and I miss it :l I wish I could just live in Malaysia sometimes just because of them, but then I wouldn't be able to appreciate them as much as I do now. But it's the reason why I'm always missing out, I'll never be able to see the first time some of my cousins/neices or nephews walk or talk, and I won't be able to play with them through their early years.
Pshh and I didn't even have much hawker food, though for a week I had Roti like, every week for supper hahaha and one of my cousins just SOAKS her roti with all this curry shiz till it's soggy. And my other little cousin just get's all this curry dripping from his mouth hahahaha. I'll miss those days. See you guys in 2010.

SCHOOL
School's been alright, but we have this program called Xplore where you do nothing and sit around staring at the computer screen doing shit all. And I have 4 assignments to do which I'm really avoiding at the moment. I've practically finished Health, Halfway through Science, Done nothing in Math cause they haven't even explained it. STUPPIDDD

GENERAL
I've been pretty good lately, I haven't cried in ages :) and I kind of have a positive outlook on everything, but I can't still forget the past. So sometimes when I'm doing nothing I kind of think about it and it just upsets me, and it's stupid cause it's the past, but not even time will never let me forget and it's really annoying. And I need to learn to forget but I just can't and like, it's always in the back of my mind but sometimes it just pushes itself to the front and screws my head up. Otherwise, it's pretty good. Though friends can often push it, by implementing "jokes" which aren't actually jokes to you, and actually hurt you. But even though you act quiet and upset, they don't seem to get the message and keep doing it and it's fucking annoying. And it sounds stupid but I can't seem to get myself to tell them off, cause they'll either bagg me out for doing shit or push me away and it's what I'm most scared of. Yeah, pretty good.
I've gotten into sewing lately and I'm considering taking Fashion & Design as an elective but I have to ask, hmm But whenever I sew I tend to rush things and I lose my patience which I need to learn to control.

Four Months.. a pretty food Four months if you ask me.